Dreams

Relatively aware
I should be, and I am
ashamed.

I have no dreams.

Albeit a silent blackness
that fills my sleep
like a turned off television;
pictureless, speechless, motionless,
I feel no rest.

But I also feel no pain.
Not quite numb
just nothingness
where something-ness should be.
I miss it.

Not sure what
Im groggy with a loss of REM
and too much caffiene.

Ashamed,
relatively aware I should be,
and I am.